Wednesday 4/27/2011 Stop and Smell the flowers :-)

 

This week has been full of progress and in all that is good comes time to stop and smell the flowers. I have started the adjustment ( a good one ) to all that is my crazy world and I remind myself every day to stop and appreciate the little things. I am finding that in all my excitement to help shape change and pave the road to greatness I need to stop and take stock in all that I am accomplishing. I am not only a type A personality I am also an over achiever and so for me I am finding this urge to commit myself to everything that comes my way. I also realize that I need to take down time so what I am doing is finding the balance. Is balance not what is it all about ???

Spring has arrived and along with green blooms and the grass showing signs of new life it is a time of new possibilities. Every day I am blessed with little things that mean so much. I just want to give a shout out to all of you for bringing such joy to my world.

In other exciting news I have met and have been getting to know a really wonderful and kind person who brings me so much joy and happiness. Brett has been a wonderful breath of fresh air and is also hope that indeed there are out there good guys. I am taking this one slow ( tough for over the top me ) and enjoying the getting to know and quality time spent with him. I have also found thru meeting him a new friend Steven and am also enjoying fun times ahead with my new friend.

I will wrap this up and get on to the task for today but look forward to a great rest of the week to include movie night at my house this week. It will be a great time and as always a few laughs along the way. I hope that the week has been great for all of you and that it only continues to get better !!!

Life As I Know It :-): Sunday 4/17/2011 Hello World….Bring It On !!!

Life As I Know It :-): Sunday 4/17/2011 Hello World….Bring It On !!!: "Today I was pondering on the topic and it came to me doing something I enjoy doing…lying in bed half awake, half a sleep…funny how much clar..."

Sunday 4/17/2011 Hello World….Bring It On !!!

Today I was pondering on the topic and it came to me doing something I enjoy doing…lying in bed half awake, half a sleep…funny how much clarity and perspective can happen during in that time. For today I am filled with thoughts about love and the many ways of love. Not the stuff written about in paperback books but the many ways we experience love.

So as of late I have started seeing my vision of life and I love it…yes I can give back for all the wonderful things that life has offered me. This week I had a routine check up with my oncologist and he made comment about what a miracle it was that I was here and doing so well. He actually used the term remission for the first time and this made me pause and think about how wonderful it is that I am doing so well. To go from stage 4 cancer to remission in a year and change is a wonderful thing ! I got thinking that at the same time as I was getting such news things were shaping up in the directions that I want and I had an “Ah Ha “ moment and thought I am truly loving life !!! Just one of the many ways I love life.

This week I also met with the great people that work for Cancer Patient Care and I am really excited to be helping out with them as well as I found out that I can get some of my education credits by volunteering there. I am really excited and I feel like this will be an association that will help me with my journey in education. I suspect that the connections I am making now there will bring be connections down the road to employment with social work and cancer patients. A score in my world and again I am loving it !!!!

This week also was great in terms of my work with the LGBT Center and I also feel that will be a resource that will bring me connections for future use. I am so loving the work I am doing and the good that will come from that. I was part of the crew yesterday to start the parade float. I am so excited to see that become some thing and am looking forward to helping turn nothing into something visible and something that will help spread the word. I also have stepped up to be help with volunteer coordination. I am looking forward to taking on that challenge and turning a process in to a well oiled process. Its exciting to see baby steps and knowing that I am helping shape something good.  I also attended a great workshop on racial discrimination this week presented by progress Spokane. It felt good to learn and to network with other like minds. Getting my name out there as a represented of the center was awesome too. This week I also committed to getting certified with video editing as a part of the community television station here and am looking forward to helping produce some promotional videos for The center, Equality Spokane, Destinations, and what ever else I find in that arena. I miss being involved with video and television and this will be an inroad to that again. So all and all I am loving this new lease on life !!!

This week I have reflected on how special my friends and family are. It’s the little things that mean the world to me. I get such a charge off the comments made on facebook and so enjoy the conversations I am having with them on the phone. I am so blessed and loving life to the fullest. Wow I am blessed and I will never forget or take advantage of it !! You all inspire me so much !!!

I want to touch on some sadness this week. This week a dear person left us. Gordon Wakefield is the dad of my best friend and was dear friend of mine. Recently his health turned and somehow that storm was weathered. Well Gordon you are going to be missed and the world is not the same with out you. My heart goes out to the family during this time. My step son Joshua is progressing great after open heart surgery. He is home recovering nicely. TO my friend RIchard I send continued sunshine thoughts as he starts new directions in his life and I hope that some good comes his way. Hang in there my friend its your year too !!! For my friend Shawn my thoughts and prayers continue as you deal with your mom’s post stroke affects. I know you are being tested in ways that are not fun and know I am here for you !! I also am sending prayers and good thoughts to Eunice and Curtis as Curtis continues to deal with a ruptured disk in his back. Get well soon we need you up and back to your glorious self !!!

Its been a great week and I am so loving it…Yes my dating life is also going great…. Lets just say that I am seeing someone very special and wonderful and he makes me smile

Life is awesome…go out live it and Love it !!!!

Be As - Prozzak

Life As I Know It :-): 4/12/2011 Finding My Place In This World: A Perspe...

Life As I Know It :-): 4/12/2011 Finding My Place In This World: A Perspe...: " Over the last 7-10 days I have engaged in many diverse conversations and I also have started becoming more active in many of the grou..."

4/12/2011 Finding My Place In This World: A Perspective

 

Over the last 7-10 days I have engaged in many diverse conversations and I also have started becoming more active in many of the groups I am a part of. In all of this I have done some thinking about finding my place in this world. I also have engaged in conversations with people that are centered around this very subject so for today I want to touch on few of the thoughts.

Going thru life I think we are evolving and changing. A common thought that comes up is what is my place in the world ? For some they find that living a great life and blending in with the mainstream is for them fulfilling. Others find a life of being up front and in the spot light vital to their happiness. Some find that travel and little commitments to be the way to go. Others choose to change and flex. What ever we choose for our lives we have to know that we may run into detours and sometimes opposition to our choices. In the ideal world we would all get along and we all would be free to choose what we want with no opposition and with no regrets. I am very real that although ideal that is just no possible.

I have people in my life in the various ways they are who fit into many different groups. I learn valuable lessons from them and adapt some parts of my life with what I see working in theirs. I have also grown and changes my life as I have gotten older and re-evaluated what its most important in mine. I personally tend to be a more conservative person with some leanings to a more in the spotlight approach. For me its important to stand behind the various things I do and add my voice to them as needed. In doing so however I know that it is only part of the whole picture. I am a very dynamic person and my life is shaped of many unique and wonderful parts. I tend to be identified as me the whole person and not just of one part. Having said that I will ad times bring forward a part I feel I can be useful with.

A topic that came up is the idea of “out and proud”. I am very much that but in doing so I balance all the other parts of my being. For me its part of the meal, say the starch choice, along with the meat and the vegetables offered. I have some wonderful and very dear friends that take the approach that “out and proud” is the primary part of who they are. I am not anymore right in my ways then they are and by the same token I am no less, nor they are. There is a place in the wonderful world for all of us. I may not see things the way they do but still respect them for the choices they make. For me its all part of diversity and is the spice of life. The friends I mention are people that I work on many common shared interests and goals. Between my conservative approach and their more vocal approach we are accomplishing goals and the same goals are being met. I have been struggling with this idea for some time now and trying to find the balance in my world for me. Part of me likes the involvement and I am finding this is the time for me to be involved. I am finding just where I draw the line for me and me alone. To those people I welcome their approach as they are the voice in areas I choose not to be. What I find perplexing however is that although well intentioned and wonderful people, they are wanting something that is not what the masses may want.  They will get upset that some how in all this progress we are no longer being a group on the fringes but more a part of the masses. I remind them that there always will be ways that we can get together and be as one group but that the rest of the time we are part of the masses and that is not bad. What I am finding frustrating is that some want their cake and to eat it too. I struggle with that because I know that is not how it goes and for the greater good of all equal rights is about becoming a part of mainstream and allowing our individual personality's shine as an added bonus. We are all unique to begin with and that is what makes the world so diverse and so wonderful.

When I look in the mirror I see me…All of me “ warts and all” as my mom says. Its so true I am made up of many things.I see all of them. To find my place in this world I need to look at myself and be honest with myself. I also need to look at the world I live in and rules of the game. Does this mean I may not be a part of changing a few outdated ones ? no it means that I shape who I am with my personal goals as well as the rules of the game.

To all of my beloved friends and family I say this: I adore you for who you are “warts and all” Your diverse personalities help shape my views. We may not agree on all points of view all the time but I still love and adore you none the less. In my world that is one thing that does not change. Be who you want to be, understanding that in doing so you may bring attention to yourself and your choices but that is the spice of life and what makes this world such a great place to be in. Know I am here for you no matter what and always will be. Lets all join together and make the world an even brighter place . Remember that in a bag of skittles you can taste the rainbow and that with only one flavor they are not skittles. Together under the rainbow ( or over the rainbow ) there is a place for all of us !!!!

Smile it’s a beautiful thing.