Tuesday 3/29/2011 Perspectives………..

As I have not been blogging much and really the reason why will be spelled out in todays entry. I will start with a DISCLAIMER: I am in no way intending to offend anyone, simply I am hoping that I can explain the why of this. Again I cherish the friendships I have and have come to a point of overload on this and need to explain this in a way that will reach the masses in one way all at once. Ok on with the topic of my brain today: Internet chat and how it can consume a person.

As of the late I am finding myself more and more over connected to the cyber world. I have 4 computers and web on my cell phone. All of this can be a handy tool. Indeed I use the internet for research and knowledge. I use social networking for a voice and really a part of communication for the many projects I have gotten myself involved with. I have also found that I am starting to get to the point that I am not accomplishing what I want to get done. I am finding that I am not watching as many movies as I would like, that some of the research I have chosen to do is not getting done. Why ? because of chat. Facebook, MSN, Yahoo they all are great communication tools but as of late I am spending too many hours wasted just chatting and although some of that is in regards to what I want to do, its mainly time wasted. I wake each day and my routine is to start coffee and fire up the e-mail and Facebook. I used to be able to catch up on e-mail and read my activity feed on Facebook all in about an hour. I subscribe to many groups so its not un-common to have hundreds of e-mail and Facebook posts to read and respond or forward on. Well I am finding that more and more I am engaging in chat more. Now I know I am starting this as much as others seeing me being on line and starting the conversation, however going forward I think its time for a time out if you will, so I will start going off line with the chat when I first get on. I will go thru the e-mail and the wall posts and then if the day allows I will go on line for chat. I am also going to make a point of not planting myself on line at night with the laptop on my lap when I wish to watch a movie or TV program. I am not being mean or un-kind…its simply a need change as I get going more and more with the various projects I am working on, I will need some solid time away from chat. I will allow myself the time but it will be more limited. Also Please understand that I am going to be more limited on phone time too. I have allowed mindless hours spent chatting on the phone and I need to scale that back….I am not a huge phone person and despite the fact that I have both a landline and a cell phone, I am not interested in spending hours on the phone for no reason. Again I am not trying to be mean….I simply have things that I am engaged in outside of the world of time wasting. Come this fall I will be at full load with school and the continuation of my various projects and I want everyone to get used to the fact that I am no longer available for just chat. I have to manage my time better. So please understand that I am doing this because I need some more time in directions other than the net.

So to sum up my thoughts I will say this: Please understand that I love and respect all of my friends, however my time spent being un-productive has to be scaled back. I need to re-gain the focus of the many things I have going and I need to limit my time spent just chatting. I will be very kind in my ways but will draw a line in the sand when I have reached the end of my allocated time. I am going to be more aggressive with myself and the time I spend just wasting time. Lets make a point of keeping in touch so that when I am around to connect it is time well spent and that I am just finding that all this time I have been spending being available 24/7 has to stop as I am not eating as I should and not accomplishing all that I want to. Understand I am doing this with the understanding I have allowed this..I blame me for this and I simply need to re-allocate the time I have in a better way so that at the end of a day I have balanced my day to include the commitments I have made and to get some rest in too. Life is crazy enough with out me adding to that by trying to be everything to everyone all the time. I will more appreciate the time I do spend in chat but it will no longer be my all day thing. I will start including more of what I want and need to get done in my days as well as the mindless time.

Tuesday 3/22/2011

 

Today I go in for phase 1 of complete dental correction. I have been asked if I am anxious about this and no not really…having been through what I have last year this is nothing in comparison. I am excited to having this done and am looking forward to yet another goal done.

I also am getting more perspective on life and am one step closer to letting go of negative energy in my life. For too long I was hoping for something un-realistic. I would get very anxious at family gatherings and I can see the light…they are never going to lead the life I do and I am going to let go of thinking they will ever fully get me so to speak. Diversity is what makes the world go around and I am embracing this on the family level. For me to put things in perspective makes even the unpleasant workable and today thanks to my mom and a long conversation I can. I also will challenge some notions and prove that despite what they may think I can lead a full life just as mine is or where I choose to take it. Now I can see things in the way I can move forward.

In other un-related news I ask you keep in your thoughts and prayers my step son Joshua. I found out that he is going in for open heart surgery on the 31st. Being a teen he is dealing well with it but for the rest of us it is a pretty scary thing. If I could I would go to Vancouver in support , but will be kept updated.

I have to get ready to go so I will post as it is. Hope your week has been wonderful so far and that  there are many reasons to smile as its such a good thing !!

3/17/2011 Happy Saint Patrick's Day !!!

So today is the day of green Green clothing, green with envy, Green food and Green Beer. So what is all mean…not just today but every day ??? I bring thus because my friend Dean posed the question today relating to gay friendly business vers straight friendly. I take it one step further. I reflect on my advocacy of DOMA and Marriage Equality. I for one would like to see the day that I and my brothers and sisters of the GLBT community no longer have stand up for equal rights. I would cherish the day that we all could stand as one with out the labels. So I am gay…that is a small part of the whole picture. It was not a choice other than the choice to live my life open and honestly and that started with being honest with myself. I long for the day there is one race and that is the human race.  I can only imagine right now what it would be like if I no longer had to stand on my soap box like so many and demand that I have the same rights, freedoms and protections. I reflect on Harvey Milk and what he did, the Stonewall Riots, What MLK did…People standing up and saying they were no longer tolerate the hate, the second class status…I look forward to the day that Gay’s and Lesbians no longer need to have Pride parades, that many of the things we have now that are separate are no more. So today as you celebrate all that is green, take a minute and think about all you have in your life, no not the things you own but the rights and freedoms that you have and appreciate what you do have and look to the future. We cannot change the world if we cannot change our own selves…Change starts at home and from there you can change the world. I know not everyone is going to stand up be counted in the fight for equal rights but what about in yourself ?? In the end its all about human rights is it not ??

John Lennon So Beautifully Said it in His Song Imagine:

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Monday 3/14/2011 A New Week A Fresh Start :-)

 

Today has started out good which hopefully is a sign that the week is going to be a good one. I slept somewhat better…woke 3 times and took a while to get to sleep but I slept in so I think that helped compensate…going to try taking my sleep medication before bed sooner than right at bed time and see if that helps make a difference. I know I feel much more rested and that part I am very grateful for. Today I am heading out to the LGBT center and I always have a good time there so I think this week is going to be a good one. I also have to start lining up school and I will start that tonight. I have a follow up with my GP this week and dinner with the family this weekend. All and all a busy but good week ahead.

I have processed the events of this weekend and I am ready to see where life takes me on that chapter in my life. I am peace with myself and the events of the weekend. Going baby steps as I know myself far too well and I know that if I over think things I will easily go over the top fast. I think sometimes in life we need to take a step back and just review all we have been presented with and just put that chapter on hold long enough to see what we are faced with and determine the next steps. I even went to sleep thinking about it. I am fully prepared either way and ready to give the time needed. I also have realized that hey its ok if its not the right time…that the time will come and when it does it will be beyond awesome. Have I given up no…some would say I should just move on…but I am in the mind set that giving up is defeat and what is in store for me will be played out. I am also ready to set some ground rules if it is to be. Going to take baby steps and hold firm on my ground. I am kind of excited at this challenge and hopefully that will remain true.

I am so happy to see the sunshine and although we have wind gusts it looks like spring is on the way and I am excited to see that and ready to start the spring clean up. I think the nicer weather will inspire me more to get outside and enjoy the weather and get some cardio in the process.

So I hope for you that the week is great and that all good will come this week…I know there are potential road blocks and less than happy times but over all the week is filled with smiles and happiness…As I say…smile it’s a beautiful thing

Walk Away - Christina Aguilera

Sunday 3/13/2011….Journeys in Life

 

Today is a sunny day and just what I need. Sleep was better but still I look forward to a good solid sleep. I still am waking more than I would like. I have been reflecting on life and the meaning of it only to conclude that there not really an answer. Life is a big adventure full of various journeys and learning experiences. Me being one that is a go getter I sometimes look for an answer when there is none…I am impatient I admit, I have ambitions and goals that I have to meet and feel like that I have not met them…I know that all in due time and that I need to stop and smell the flowers along the way. Ironic because I can tell my self this all the time and yet somehow I loose sight of this at times.

Recently I think I have been trying too hard on the dating and long term relationship I am after. Over achiever that I am I think I have been trying to hard and letting too much of my heart out too soon…I also think I need to see the warning signs and I have not been doing that. Well no more…I am going to start seeing things in better perspective. How can a long distance relationship really work ??? Yeah it was fun but dating requires the ability to spend time together and living 3000k miles apart will not help that. I am also going to really start watching for that “ I am not really ready “ to date sign. We all have been burned at one time or another and yet life moves on…and I guess for me I need more than the occasional phone call and e-mail…Which brings me to my next thought and I am not sure how I am going to achieve this….I need to put the breaks on my openness when it comes to my heart. I think that I am all too good at being able to express how I feel but for some this may be over the top. I know there is a balance between too little and too much…and I know that everybody is different. I need to find that balance and I guess I need to better read people to find where the comfort level is at. It has been a challenge  as with Doug I could be over the top he liked that and would in turn do the same. With Aaron he is more guarded and fearful. Less was better with him. Some where there is someone who is ready, someone who lives in the same town, some one who can express them selves and show their feelings. I know that I am not going to compromise and settle and yet I suppose in a way I am also not ready to give up..that I feel like if I do not try it will not happen. I guess I am setting my expectations a little more realistic. I have on line profiles again but am realistic that meeting on line is only the start…that there needs to be face to face time and getting to know someone starting as a friend. I am also looking forward to the possibilities that could be with my volunteering at the LGBT Center and with Cancer Patient Care. I am also looking forward to college…who knows there may be someone I meet that way…. Lots of options and that is always a good thing. I guess I just have to keep myself in check and not let my ambitions get the better part of me…easier said than done I know and it will challenge me and test me on many levels yet I need to try…as to not try and to give up is failure and that is not acceptable in my world.

Well just as I get ready to post this I check my in box and I have an e-mail from Aaron….He says the door is not closed and he just needs to figure things out. It proves my point that life is full of twists and turns. I replied that I never say never…that I am in flux and if it is to be than it will be. I am not sure where life is going to take me. I guess we shall see how this chapter of my life plays out. Interesting to say the least.

Have a Fab Sunday Everyone !!!

Saturday 3/12/2011 Reflections……

 

Well what a week it has been. Sleep has been less than what I would like, although I have a new medication for that and am hoping that soon it will really kick in and give me more normal sleep. I saw my GP Thursday and Friday I had a series of labs done so I interested in what he has to say next Thursday at the follow up.

In other news Aaron has been honest and is not ready for dating, I am disappointed but hey such is life…I will move on from this and I am wondering if I am trying too hard…could be. I wish him all the best in life and I am going to step back and look at all that is going good in life. I know that somewhere out there there is someone that will be the one and I think its going to happen when it is right. Spring is fast approaching and I will concentrate on that and just see where life takes me…I have so much coming up that I will just try and stay on course.

Today I have had 2 naps and after a bad nights sleep I still have gotten a few things done. I reaching the point however that my energy level is done…I guess one can only push so far…I will end this here and hopefully I will sleep good and have come to some conclusions on this funny thing called life. Once again I am being challenged and I will over come this with shining colors

Have a Great Saturday Night Everyone !

BARBRA STREISAND beautiful

"Sure Fire Winners" -- Adam Lambert [Lyrics]

Club 69 - Always Unique (Peter's Disko Mix)

Queen - It's A Beautiful Day

Christina Aguilera - Beautiful

Wednesday 3/9/2011

So today I woke again after almost 9 hours of sleep ( fitful for a time ) and I am feeling like a truck ran over me. I would kill for some really good sleep really I would and not sure what to do about that one as the drugs do not seem to help. I am also in a very emotional mood today and am crying for reasons I wish I could explain…Is it the bad sleep catching up with me, the crummy weather, I am not sure what it is and I just know that it is a good thing that today I have to be no where as I am not sure I am ready for the public today.

Still working on getting the medical stuff all worked out, but progress there is being made so all is good.

Today since there is little to talk about me I am going to give some kudos and mentions to a few people in my life. To my mom…for whom I think is at last getting over a cold that took 2 or so weeks to deal with…yeah mom !!!

To my friend Stuart who moved to PA for several reason ( the official and actual reasons vary, but hey be happy ). He had a super awesome weekend and really feels like he has met someone really special . I am always happy to see my friends happy

To my friend Richard who has so much on the plate that all I can say is he is making progress and as a dear friend I hope that he is going to find the path of happiness that he so desires. Sending smiles his way

To Jen who is going through some rough times with Marcus. Ok so he is a Cat but to here he is her child and there is not much more the vet can do so time is valuable each and every day. Hang in there Jen and enjoy every happy moment.

To My friend Doug who got the chance to not only volunteer for Bass Wars as part of the winter music festival but all got the chance to spin a set for the group of DJ’s there but was asked to join them again. Doug is a watchmaker by trade but also has ambitions to be a DJ so for him this was a great chance to network and it sounds like the weekend was epic for him so I am happy for him

My Sister got all moved and now has all the fun that comes with settling into a new place and finding all the odd ball things that you pack but then cannot remember where you packed them…I know she will be happy with this new place and the extra space will be of great help to her. Life is good for her or so I am gathering so that is good.

Well this weekend was quite the weekend and it seems more and more that any bump in the road is now clear with Aaron and he is slowly letting his guard down…I am so excited to see the side that is well protected. Have had a good phone call and e-mail exchanges. So there is hope on the horizon and I could not be happier So This Saturday is On and I am so excited !!!! He even posted something about it on his Facebook Wall….progress for my Care Bear…Love It

So today I will do all the random things that I need to get done and try to get an actual nap today all so tomorrow I am all set for the Doctor’s appointment….fun times

 

Hugs and Smiles for everyone !!!

Tuesday 3/8/2011 :-)

 

Today I have nothing that is pressing and yet it seems that the list of things that needs to be done is never ending…I am sure all can relate to that.

Yesterday was a good day at the center and although it was not very busy in all a good day. This weekend on Saturday we are having a training on conflict resolution and how to deal with situations.

Yesterday I got a CD I ordered on EBAY from Japan, now if the one from the UK would show up as it was ordered earlier and the other one from there ordered the same day already arrived…HMMM. Anyhow the one that came yesterday is a very rare one and to get a factory sealed one is a find. It was only released on CD in Japan for some reason so I am super excited.

Yesterday I also found out that our joyous government is terminating my medical coverage and once I accrue $1848 in medical bills or pay that out by July 31st then the coverage will continue. Um well needless to say I freaked….Sorry being disabled does not provide luxury living so having medical bills of the amount is crazy. I do not know how they figure that I can afford that. Anyhow I called my patient advocate at Cancer Care Northwest and she is on the case and figures if nothing else we fill out a financial hardship form and thus use the bills from there to send for the spend down and then CCNW write off the amount. I am so grateful for Francie…she has been a godsend in all of this and helpful to untangle the web that is government policy.

Needless it was an interesting day..Although I did get a chance to talk with Aaron on the phone and that is always a good thing so my day was not bad at all  

Despite the snow falling I am going to make Tuesday a great day and have lots of smiles Lets hope this is the last snow fall of the year !!! I am so ready for spring !!!

Monday 3/7/2011 Start Of Another Great Week :-)

Good Morning all !!! As we are at the start of another great week I wonder what will be in store for me this week. I love Monday because it is a chance to start over. I think that how the week starts will help shape the journey we will have for the rest of the week !

With today being Monday its my day to volunteer at the LGBT Center. I so enjoy the time I spend doing that. I am also working on a new article for Ins&Outs all about dating and my journey to find my life partner. I am also pondering starting a Men's Social group as I feel like there needs to be a way that gay men can meet outside of the bars. So on this front I have much going on and that is good !!!

The rest of the week is pretty open…I see my regular doctor on Thursday and Hopefully this Saturday will be the much delayed Pizza and Movie night with Aaron . The weather is nice and I may get out and start getting the outside ready for spring !!! The sunshine encourages me

I am also looking at taking on the journey of seeking out my family history. I have been working on that as a concept for sometime and it would be a great project to work on and hopefully have done come June when the family gets together and be able to share with them.

Speaking of family I had a great conversation with my cousin Zak recently and its good to keep in touch with family. As I get older I come to see the importance of them. Yeah sometimes we may not agree on things but more often than not I take away from the conversation something that I can use…I like to get advise and perspectives from many angles to form the basis of my opinions.

So to a new week full of new adventures…new learning experiences and in general smiles and happiness as that is what it is all about !!

Army of Lovers - Let the Sunshine In

Sunday 3/6/2011 A Day Of Positive Reflection :-)

 

Yesterday I learned a valuable lesson.It is also the inspiration for a multi part series I am composing for INs&Outs. Yesterday Aaron expressed to me his feelings and that things were going too fast for him and his fear of being hurt again. I had a near stroke ( ok in a manor of speaking ). I was very upset because he is such a special person and honestly all the things that I am looking for in a partner. With in 1 hour I was on the phone to mom for some great motherly advise and I love her dearly however some of her advise is outdated at best. I know that things happen for a reason and over time but being me I am not going to wait the rest of my life for the partner that I am seeking. Well After talking to mom Aaron calls and sent another e-mail. We had a good talk and have gotten past this little bump in the road. I guess the lesson learned is that going slow is a good thing and lots of communication is the key. His concerns were valid. I look around for roll models and there are none. I look at heterosexual people and their relationships…that is of some help but honestly its not always applicable. So often in my life the relationships I have had have been accelerated. We meet and right off the bat there is sexual relations. This one is different. This one is teaching me patience and I am growing as a person in the process. I am learning how to be re-assuring and learning not to joke about marriage. I am so wrapped up in the whole marriage equality and I made a joke about it…I even told him I was joking but he took it seriously. So I am no longer going to mention the subject for now, not even as a joke. I also reassured him that my cancer is being monitored like a hawk so if it returns it will be caught right away and I explained what they would do to get rid of it. Aaron is truly a special one in a million…he was scared of loosing me to the cancer. So in this journey I am going to be the most re-assuring and patient person….I also am letting him call the shots…I am moving at his pace, his direction. This has been a learning process for me as I am very strong willed and not one to sit back and let things happen..I make them happen…well for now I am going to sit back…he knows not for ever but for now. I will give him time and in the process I see a wonderful thing happening. It really inspires me and shows me that quite possibly the dream I have always had may come true….Every relationship is different and I am looking forward to this one. Not only do I have a chance to find someone that is looking for all that I am, A life partner, commitment, family but some one who is so caring and loving. Aaron has a side I have not yet seen…he is guarded  and I am looking forward to the day I can see that other side as the side I see is wonderful so I can only imagine what else there is. The biggest obstacle is the lack of role models and guidance. I am winging this one. What I find very interesting is that I know many people who are looking for that special someone. I feel like those that are of depth are out there and how to get them connected. Its an area that needs addressing for sure, thus I think I have taken on a new project.

Bottom line in life is happiness…Yes one has to be happy with themselves and then they can be happy and bring happiness to a relationship. We also have to look hard and deep inside ourselves and ask ourselves what it is we want in a partner. We have to be open and honest about that…we also have to communicate that. I feel like so many relationships fail due to the lack of communication and sometimes because we have gone for someone that is great but not all of those things we are looking for. For me I look for the inner beauty first. Yes good looks are important but if that is all you have then what do you have really ?? Finding the complete package is not always easy but not impossible either.

Have a Great Sunday Everyone

Follow Up :

After have a near heart attack and a few tears…Aaron calls and apparently he sent another e-mail so I read that and we talk and things are fine….Just a little panic and a reminder why it is so important to talk things thru !!!!  I appreciate all the feedback from you dear friends of mine…Pizza and Movie is next week….Now for a stroll to get some wine and have a quiet evening.

 

Cheers !!!

3/5/2011 A Turn Of Events

 

Well I guess life is challenging me again….Aaron sent me an e-mail that he is not ready for a relationship. What is it with me and men…I seem to attract them and then they go running…Doug wanted to work on his career and now Aaron is not ready to commit and needs to work on things. I throw my hands in the air. I wonder is there any good guys out there…Well I guess for now I have no answers. I really feel like I am driving them off and I want to know what it is I am doing wrong … I was going slow with this one…I guess the saga continues and no pizza night for me….I am going to have a quiet night and reflect on just what it is that that has me jinxed.

Any suggestions welcome……

Saturday 3/5/2011 :-)

So today is the big day !!! Ok so it is movie night with Aaron and I am excited to spend some quality time with the special and adorable man in my life . I am also being productive so all and all its been a great day !!!

Yesterday I managed to get some things done despite the motivation…I found the ambition late in the day and I feel better for that. I was able to catch up with a dear friend last night on line and that is always good. Over all a quiet day and evening

Today as I have been going about my morning routine I am listening to Adam Lambert and Clay Akien. I think they both have been under rated as they did some really good songs. SO much so I am on the lets replay a song again and again…Fun times  

So although I will not get back on my soap box here…there is progress in the repeal of DOMA and Same Sex Marriage is getting closer to reality. I am keeping busy spreading the word and the updates elsewhere. I am excited to see this and it is about time !!!

I guess that is all for now…I will be going off line for the night around 6…something kind of strange but good for me and I will catch up with tomorrow’s blog Have a Great Saturday !!!

Friday 3/4/2011 TGIF :-)

 

Ever have one of those days when you feel like there are many things you could be doing and yet somehow you can easily distract yourself with other things…well for me today has been one of those days.  I woke up this morning first at 5:30am and then again a time or 2 before getting up at 7:15. I could have gone back to sleep and may very well take a nap today. So I get up and make coffee and catch up on the world of Facebook and e-mail and some how most of the morning slips by. Could it be the hypnotic trance of General Midi’s Y4K cd ? could it be the chat conversations that I had…who knows but before you know it its now after noon ( 12:17pm) and other than faxing off something and eating breakfast oh yeah I made my bed too…other than that I have done nothing and I feel guilty about that….yet I am having a hard time being motivated.

So for todays blog I will not get on my soap box…I see that we are making progress and that is good. The fight continues until the battle is won !!!

Things are progressing nicely with Aaron….This weekend we will have the delayed Pizza and Movie night and I am so looking forward to spending some quality time with him. I am finding that it is not as challenging as I thought it would be going slow and taking time to get to know him. Its been good and I am finding that when we talk on the phone or in e-mail that  there are so many common areas and he is such a loveable person to begin with that it is adding up nicely….We even laugh about the same things and both agree that Justin Bieber needs to go !!!

Sorry that this one is not more of an interesting read…guess some days it is just that way…I am sure Sunday I will have much to write about

So at some point I will get the motivation to get things done and make the day worth while !!! I hope that everyone has a most awesome weekend !!!!

Wednesday 2/2/2011 A Great Day :-)

So today has been most wonderful and I am very happy so I am going to start with all the happiness in my life before I go further into the main topic today. Last night I was talking with Aaron and WOW he is such a great person and the common areas are many. The more we get to know each other the more I feel like I have met the one that I could see myself with for a life time. Smart, charming, educated, loving, the list goes on…even been through some of the same bad experiences that I have…I am so lucky to have this opportunity for happiness and to share life with someone that is so great…its beyond words. Best part is we are both taking this slow and I like that !! So Adorable Aaron I am grinning from ear to ear as you make me feel wonderful !! To the future and all that brings

 

Now for the main thought on my mind as of late… Marriage equality. I know this is a charged subject and I respect all sides, however I feel that the time has come that if 2 people wish to commit a life together than they should be able to. A friend of mine commented: “ Marriage is not an institution, its a relationship....” I agree. I am of the thought that if for whatever the reason you want to call marriage of same sex couples civil unions…I am ok with that, provided I am afforded the same benefits and protections that heterosexual marriages are afforded. Yes I can register domestic partnership, but what about filing joint taxes and the tax breaks 2 married people get?? What about the discounts for insurance ?? Medical directive of the partner in the event they are un-able to express their wishes…estate issues…what about if 2 gay people have children…not only is there no protection for the surviving partner, we do not get tax credits, The list goes on…I know what the original intent of marriage was..but lets be honest how many get married just for that reason. In and of its self a civil union as they now stand are a symbolic gesture of the love 2 people share but if that relationship does not last then they just split…there is no divorce and I for one feel way too many people go into marriage with out thinking about the rough spots and divorce. I feel marriage is a very serious thing and I think it should be taken seriously…including on working on the rough spots. I guess for me it comes down to equal rights for all citizens, not special rights. I am Matthew and that is a complex number of things including the small part which is my sexual orientation. I should be afforded the same benefits should I choose to marry, and I am one that if I got married it would be forever. Not every one can say that. I take it very seriously. I just want to be able to put my partner on my insurance if I like or visa versa. If I should have a child I want all the responsibilities and protections for them. I would like to be able to have joint property if I want with out the run around way 2 same sex people have to do it now…I do not want my partners family being able to exclude me from medical issues if my partner cannot speak for himself, I do not want to have the extra hassle  should it come to matters of the estate. You married Heterosexuals get all of that automatically and it is harder to challenge if the family wants to, not me. I know not every church is going to open me and my partner with open arms…fine. I can deal with that. Some will argue there are bigger issues and I agree balanced budgets and better education is vital. However the time has come that Gay Marriage or what ever you like to call it is allowed to be…The arguments about more important things will never go away…there will always be something that needs attention…SO no I am not going to sit back and wait anymore. Sometimes in life we have to make the time to make things happen…This is the time. Enough is enough.

I also want to state that I love and adore all of my family and friends, no matter their thoughts about this…this is a battle that I will joining my gay brothers and sisters and fight for. The black’s fought for the same rights as whites, they were not after special rights, just equal rights…that is all I am asking for. That is not so hard or out of line. So no matter we agree on this or not I love you. I would be sad if the day were to come and I was to get married and you choose not to be there, but I will respect you, despite being hurt that you chose not to join me in the happiest time in my life.

So now that I have stated my case I will step down from my soap box…I have said my peace and stated my case. I also have other tings in life to be concerned about, but this one is top of the list. Have an Awesome Day Everyone As Always Thank You For Reading !!!

Tuesday 3/1/2011

 

Today has been a great day despite the rain/slush falling from the sky. I woke up and the cold is becoming more a thing of the past, I have a happy feeling in my heart and today I got my denture consult. I am really excited as they will take the right side of my mouth on the 22nd and then in 3-4 weeks the left side. After no teeth for 4-6 weeks I get the plates put in. I have been wanting to get this done for some time and am glad that in 2 steps it will be done.

In other great news there is progress with the State of Washington allowing same-sex marriage. It would be a very cool thing if this gets past as it is about time !!! Domestic Partnership is great but only goes so far. Ah would that not be awesome…a dream may come true for me at some point down the road yet and not have to travel to another state to get it done.

All and all its been a great week and with the appointment today I am done for the week with Doctors and such. I have another GP appointment next week but now I can spend the rest of the week doing all the things that I put off that really are not vital but on the to be done list !! Also I am super excited for Saturday. Movie and pizza night with Adorable Aaron . He is such a find…yeah things are going great in that arena of my life and the more I get to know him the more things in common we have and I am over the moon about that .

This week I will be setting the appointments for school…the next major project for me. I am so happy that 2011 is shaping up in the way that I had hoped for and big shout out to all my dear friends and family for all your support and thoughts.

Here is hoping the rest of the week is as great as the 1st part has been…I know it be Epic !!!!