Life and Random Thoughts....

This is a blog I posted somewhere else but since I plan to blog here more I figured I would share here. This Was Written January 16th 2011 :

SO much is happening in my life and I find that everyday is a new adventure. Today I am inspired to write about a few things that are on my mind and maybe in the process be able to sort all the odds and ends together in the process.

I made a goal for my self that 2011 was going to be a new chapter in my life and rather than call it New Years Resolutions this was going to be a new chapter. I completed my treatments in November and other than CT scans to monitor my progress I am happy to be free of the treatments. They have not told me I am in remission but I like to think that I am and hope that I stay this way. 2010 was quite the year for me with the cancer battle and I am ever so grateful to all of the specialists and my friends and family. I am proud to say that as of this writing I have brought my weight back to 140 lbs which for some one 5' 10" is still low but better than the 123 I was last Feb. The journey with cancer has been one that made stop and think about everything in life. I know I should have been more scared at times than I was, but for me it was simply a change or re-route in life. I think a big part of my recovery has been I have never really let the cancer get me down.. I maintain a happy face and attitude daily in spite of it all.

So now that we are in 2011 I am looking forward to each new day as a gift. I am re-building stamina although slowly and they tell me that could take a year to be fully back to normal. I still plan on returning to college although I have delayed that by one quarter as I am not quite strong enough to get the full benefit out of it and I want to have at least some good stamina to be able to concentrate on studies and get the most of my educational experience.

The end of 2010 also brought me some happiness in a way not anticipated. I have met the worlds most wonderful man and I could not be happier. It is so rare to find someone that has the same values, dreams and ambitions in life. I had given up on finding chemistry as I was meeting some people but never a spark. Well not any more. I have truly been sent an angel and although it is still young in the relationship it is exciting every day and getting to know him has been not only great but also a wow have I really met the one. I feel we all have a soul mate and that there is one person out there for each of us. I also feel that sometimes people over look that for some reason. For me it has been my ongoing search. I do not want to spend the rest of my life alone I also do not want to be endlessly dating. Further I will no longer just settle for nice enough guys but no chemistry. Well like I said I have met a very super and loving man that is everything I could want in a partner. We have had many discussions on the importance of life and goals and dreams. It is the breath of fresh air that I need.

There is a possibility of some further changes in my life but at this point I do not feel I need to address them here as there is a lot up in the air. Let me just say that I am excited and nervous but am ready for what ever 2011 may hold for me !!! This year is turning out to be the best year yet and that excites me.

As for my family I love them dearly and hope they understand that I am doing what makes me happy in life, that it is my life and at 40 I should be in charge of my life. They have been supportive of me for a long time and I hope that continues. I do love them dearly and respect what they have to say although that will not stop me from doing what I see as right in my life.

I want to take a moment and share a thought about my late Paternal grandparents. They are both gone and have been for several years but I miss them dearly and sure could use them around about now...they are the role model I have taken my life after and to be able to discuss all of this with them would have been a blessing. I know they are looking down from heaven and smiling. I love you both and miss you both daily.

I am sure I will be blogging from time to time as things change and happen and as I am ready to share my thoughts with the world. I do rather enjoy this if only because it helps me process everything and clear my head. So if you are reading this thank you I appreciate it !!!

Have A Great Day Every Day And I Hope Your 2011 Is The Exciting New Chapter For You That It Is For Me