Yesterday was good to get out and spend some time at the LGBT center. It was a slow day but none the less I was able to help and i am sure as time goes on there is will be plenty to do !! I cam home tired and even with a nap I was drained all evening. I did get to chat with Aaron which was nice and also chat on line with a few friends so all was awesome that way. Mom is not doing do well. she is on heavy meds to help the infection in her lungs and is using a nebulizer. Apparently this is par for the course when she gets a cold so she is not too worried...lots of rest and all the other things that one does to get better. This does mean that out plans for tomorrow are off however. I want her to be feeling better and I shall spend the day in reflection of the past year ( Feb 17th is the anniversary of my diagnosis of cancer ). Aaron is feeling better after a day off from work and lots of rest. Glad to hear that...would hate to have to cancel Saturday too. I do not think that will happen so it is all good.
I have been reflecting on my life as of late and looking for answers that I am not sure are out there. I have been thinking about my friend Doug as of late...why ? well because his big interview did not go so well according to him and although he is taking the approach of better luck next time, something tells me it is not that simple and I am just being an overly concerned friend I guess. It does not help that other than the text msg saying it did not go so well and better luck next time....that he was going to just going to focus on music. And one later letting me know he arrived home, I have not gotten any feedback on how it went. I guess for me this lack of feedback plus he is showing on line till late ( eastern time ), make me wonder what is going on....I do not want to pry so I am going to wait for now, but at some point I will send a msg of some sorts and try to get more details. I guess I get vibes that are less than awesome and I hope I am wrong on that. I want him to be happy in his life and I know that he is capable of that. I know he working hard on the new CD so maybe he will finish that and that will be what he has been up to. Again I am being a worry wart for nothing I am sure. And If by some chance you read this Doug...Send me an e-mail or something letting me know all is OK.
I am so looking forward to Saturday :-) As one Friend put it...as one door closes another opens. After 6 years of on again off again chatting and never meeting I get to meet some one that is in the same boat as I am...Single and looking, relationship minded, and many many values I live he has the same opinion of. It will be nice to meet and who knows. I know that I said in earlier posts that I was going to hold out for the Special one I spoke of but I am also not going to allow a potential chance at happiness and everything I want to pass me by. Do not get me wrong The Special One will always have a special place in my heart but I have a chance to have the relationship I always wanted with some one who is in the same town and settled in his career...that is handsome and a big kid at heart...I am not going to pass that up. I am going to go slow and see where it may lead...Its rough because of all the things in a short time I shared with The Special one, but he is far away, wants to focus on his career and I respect that....at the same time I have potentially the awesome relationship I always wanted right here :-) I am so jazzed for that. As For The Potential One I want him to know that you are going to get 100 % of me..and we shall see given time where that leads us :-) I know already that there is something, some bond and I am so excited to see what the future holds. I know I am using generic terms but out of respect of the 2 involved I will keep it that way for now.
I am saying my prayers for my friend Bel,
She has lots of choices to make and they are pretty major things so for her I am saying my prayers and I know that she will make the right choice.
Today I have friends coming over for dinner and then an event at The Spotlight from 7-9. I am looking forward to seeing some of the people I never see and be supportive of the cause. I really am not much of a bar person any more so it more for the cause.
I have posted the whole group of pictures that were taken yesterday on my facebook page. I am pleased with how they turned out and to be able to show off the new look. I think it helps make me look younger and although I know of 2 people who would appose, I have gotten praise from so many others about it so I am keeping it for now :-)
Guess I should get some thing productive done so I will stop here. For Tomorrow's entry I think I will reflect on 1 year of my life and the Cancer Journey. Have A Great Day Everyone !!!!
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